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levi the poet. 

can’t wait for these beauties to come out! platform ballerina shoes! JC x Wildfox. <3

3Sometimes life sucks. We all know it and stuff happens that gets us down. Lately I’ve been dealing with the issue of letting go. Sometimes it’s hard that when someone wrongs us or hurts us in a way where after we open up to them and let them in our “private life” the tear us apart and use things against us in a way out of selfishness. This morning I started to do my devotion journal again and it was perfect it was like God knew that I needed to wait to do this certain page today instead of when I should of done it. It talked about how to still trust people even though we’re abandoned by someone else who we let into our lives and opened up to. I feel that so many people are abandoned and they feel like because of what somebody did to them that now everyone is going to do that. I’m guilty of that myself. I have an incredibly large wall up from letting almost anybody in, but at the same time this made me realize that yeah someone left us maybe when we needed it, but God had a plan for that. Especially when it comes to relationships you open yourself up to someone in a way that you never normally do and say they betray you in which ever way it might be but instead of looking at it in a bad situation we need to look at the positive in the situation. That person obviously couldn’t handle you, or the situation, or had their own issues that they needed to deal with so they left. It might hurt but look at it as God is saving you from being with the wrong person and ending up in a bad relationship down the road. I know that for me if I was with whom I was with years ago, that the bad things that happened needed to happen for me to get out or I would be so miserable if I was to stay in that situation.  We become more afraid of intimacy with others and shrink back and that’s what makes us grow cold and hard. I know it’s hard to get over when the people we trust hurt us but it’s only to make better room for better people in our lives. Once we know how to deal with those types of issues it really does help makes you’re life a little bit easier.  I’m honestly so thankful even for the bad situations that have happened in my life yeah they do suck but at the same time, but i’ve learned so much and grown so much that I hope if someone is going through or went through the same things I did that I would be able to help them with their pain and struggles. 

easily in my top 3 hillsong songs.

best parents ever. my dad woke up at 1am to take me to work at 2am and stayed awake all night to pick me back up at 6 then my mom took me to work so i didn’t have to find parking in all the craze. now nap time and back to work i go! come to BCBG if you’re out later!!

happy thanksgiving!! i’m so thankful for all of my family who’s always there to support me in anything that i do. i’m thankful for my best friends leslee, alana, tina, celina, mikey and charla amongst all my other really close friends and other friends, i just love you all so much and am so thankful for all of you.

this year has seriously been the best starting off with jeremy and AC’s wedding and hanging out with katie and meeting all my new beautiful southern ladies i’ve grown close to and becoming close to veronica. the wonderful high school girl that i grew close to. i’ve learned so much this year and am so thankful for everything that’s happened even some of the bad situation i’m thankful for, i know i had my moments but i am thankful for what i’ve learned through it. it helped me know what i actually deserve and my standards may be a bit higher, it’s probably where they should of been years ago.  i’ve gone on so many amazing trips this year and i know next year will top this one. 

i’m so excited to finish the year with a girls trip with some of my best friends and for christmas and everything else god has placed in my life.  

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Good things take time, but great things happen all at once.

the most adorable thing ever was the man sitting next to me on the plane yesterday. Him and his wife’s goal is to go to all 7 continents together so they can go around the world together. They’re at 6 right now and only have one more to go. that idea would be amazing to do with your significant other. i love when you see dudes talk about their ladies and you can tell that they’re so in love, it’s the most precious thing ever.

then he told me to stay sweet and nice and never let anyone change me no matter what.and make sure i stay the same and to pursue all my dreams. i’m so inspired.